On the other hand
You on the over hand, I’ve finally come to terms with all the mixed feelings ive had about you over the years. I’m still mad and hurt and I still hate you. And I’ve decided that I want absolutely nothing to do with you. I’ve realized how wrong it is, what you did. And I realize completely that you still don’t think you did anything wrong. And you know what? that’s fine because I want nothing from you anymore. That sorry that I felt you owed me for so long, I don’t care for it. So you can look at me all you want, you can try to sit next to me as much as you please, think about me and wish you still had me because i know you do i see it in your eyes. but you just need to know one thing, and that is you mean nothing to me and I’m over anything you ever were to me whether it be a friend boyfriend or enemy. I will no longer acknowledge your existence. You are nothing more then scum and I know now, that you never deserved me.
I know it’s crazy and we are young but just maybe you’ll be the one.
Some times I get in these moods where you just make me so happy and I’m so crazily in love with you. We’re the most perfect people in this town for each other and every day I fall harder for you. It’s the little things like calling me angel or cupcake or joking around. I remember when I used to think you were intimidating and scary and the tall big guy a few lockers down but now you don’t scare me. You’re my big teddy bear and I love you. And I know we’re young and we probably won’t last through college, but if we do I’ll be glad. But I know it’s damn near impossible so I just hope that whoever I settle down with later in life is like you. I want a guy who treats me as well as you and cares about me like you do and loves me as much as you do. Cause you’ve set the bar pretty high
I wish I could change so much about my life. I wish I was prettier and had more friends. I wish that guys actually liked me. I mean I love my boyfriend and all but I want to feel noticed. I’ve never been the it girl in my grade and I’m sick of feeling so angry and shitty all te time. Im not happy with myself and it’s seriously starting to turn into a problem. I just wish people would acknowledge my existence more often. I wish I was well liked. I wish I could get out of here and find somewhere I belong. I wanna go south. I don’t like it up here. I want boys in trucks and beer and bars where there’s good music I want boots and tailgates and all of it. I hate it here.
I know this is late and by the time this posts it won’t be the 21 anymore but it just hit me now, like a freight train really. You’ve been gone for three months now Molly and things aren’t the same. We’d be starting a new spring season about now maybe not since everyone’s a senior now but you know what I mean. I don’t know soccer doesnt feel the same anymore without you. I know we werent as close as you were with others but I remeber all the things you’d say when I was upset about something sully did or said and I remember how much better you made me feel about it and how you made me laugh so hard. I miss you molls and so does so many other people. Jess really needs you right now moll, look over her, shits pretty rough for her. I saw your dad a few weeks ago at the end of our last indoor game and looked pretty rough too I mean it’s expected. My prayers are with you, your brother and your parents cause I know that they miss you more then anyone else. I hope you’re at peace and are happy doing whatever it is your up too up there. Rest in the sweetest peace Molly, forever missed but never forgotten.
I can only take so much of this. I really dont think I can stand strong much longer. I’m so stressed out all the time and I’m constantly on the verge of a panic attack. I hate this feeling I hate being so angry all the time And. Of even knowing the reason why. Theres just so much bullshit going on I cant take it. I need an escape because there’s only so much I can take
Miss you Molly
I can’t believe its been two months, I hope you’re resting in the sweetest of peace and watching out for all those who love you and who you love in return. Even the best fall down sometimes<3
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jdshfajkldhaklfjhd. i don’t know. i trust you i really do but you and i both know what happened on your last cruise and we both know that it didn’t take much for the two of us to fall for each other in four days. your cruise is a whole week. i know you don’t want to give up what we have for a week with some girl but what happens if you fall for her and you actually want to throw away us for her. i don’t know. i think the worst part is just not knowing what you’re doing or what your thinking or just not being able to hear from you. i don’t like not knowing if you’re okay or not or how your day was. it scares me. come home already i miss you :(
Even the best fall down some times
I don’t understand how God can take the life of an innocent child yet leave that if a wicked person. I can’t even wrap my head around it. Molly you had such an affect on my life and I will never forget you. You always made me smile and laugh and you always cheered me up when I was down. Your laughter was contagious and so was your smile. Your heart was bigger then any one I know. Your light will never be extinguished in our towns. I dont think you realized how many lives you touched, i think even you would be surprised by it. Your memory will live on. May the angels lead you in and God bless you. Rest in the sweetest of peace and keep Jerry company. Its never goodbye only I’ll see you later. I love you girl and I miss you already.
You wanna know what i cant fucking stand?
Girls who act like such moronic idiots just for attention. If you need to belittle your intelligence to make people want to listen to hear what stupid thing comes out of your mouth next, then you’re fucking pathetic. I’m so sick of hearing how funny this was that she said or how funny that was. Have some decency and act like a fucking real lady. You dumb fucking slut. JUST SHUT THE FUCK UP.
